How are you supposed to tell people?  People will give you advice: wait until the right moment, open up slowly, introduce it to them as if they are a small child, maybe just don’t tell them?  All of these are ways that they have dealt with it, but how do you know when it’s your time?

“You can’t!  You aren’t!  I won’t allow it!”

“Mom, there’s literally nothing you can do!  Just leave me alone!”

Are we clay figures, waiting to be sculpted by the world?  If we are, then she has dried, except for the very center, the hardest part to reach.

” You can’t be though; it doesn’t work that way.  You’re too young, you just can’t understand it yet.”

Oh, I think I understand quite well.

“You aren’t me, you don’t know that!”

“But I know you, this is just going to be another phase!  It’s not really who you are.”

“You aren’t me!”

I didn’t realize I had started to yell until I heard my last word reverberate off the kitchen tiles.  Her face was bright red, like I had just slapped her across the face, and I couldn’t handle it anymore.  I sprinted down the hall, and was on the stairs when I heard her call to me, “You’re my daughter, and that’s what you’ll always be!”

Sometimes, it’s just not your time.

I sat on my bed while staring vacantly at the far wall.  Eventually, I began to feel warmth trickling down my cheeks.  As I reached up to swipe away my tears angrily, I heard a knock on my door, and before I had time to ask who it was, my dad swung the door open slowly and walked in.  I sat up quickly, scrubbing my cheeks.

“You know you don’t have to pretend to be something you’re not to get people to like you, right?”

“Umm… yeah?” This isn’t what I was expecting.

“That means that you don’t have to try and be something you’re not t-”

I cut him off and elbowed him out the door, slamming it shut.  I can’t handle this right now.

Am I lying to myself?  Is this…who I am? I don’t actually know anymore…

I began to remove myself from parts of my life, but something I couldn’t escape was myself.  People got curious though, and I eventually crumbled.  I didn’t know how they’d react, but I thought I had a fairly good idea.

I’m disgusting.  They’re going to hate me forever….I already hate myself, so how bad could it be?

“So… what do you want me to call you?”

“Oh, um….Oliver?”

“Yeah, cool! Whatever you’re comfortable with!”

Sometimes, it is you’re time, but you just don’t have your person yet.

I’m who I’m supposed to be, and that’s all I have to be.  And that’s just fine.


Revolutionary Reasons

A revolt is when people stand up against the government or societal views to make a change.  Revolutions have happened many times in the past, such as the American Revolution, where America broke away from Great Britain, the Days of Rage, where people protested the Vietnam War, and  Nat Turner’s rebellion, a slave rebellion in Virginia in 1831, and there are many modern ones here today, such as the Black Lives Matter Movement, the fight for LGBTQA+ rights, and protests for gender equality.  People revolt for many reasons, but the overlying purpose of a rebellion is to gain individuals or groups of people equality or fair treatment.  They revolt because it empowers them, they want to see a change, and because they feel treated unfairly.

The language used in W.E.Henley’s poem “Invictus” gives off a feeling of anger and malice, but also hope, showing one getting a sense of empowerment by revolting, like people fighting for the rights of LGBTQA+. “My head is bloody, but unbowed…beyond this place of wrath and tears…shall find me unafraid.”  Saying that their heads are bloody, they’ve been beat down and put beneath everyone else for the longest time, but they aren’t bowed, shows that even now they are still here to fight for their rights to be who they are without having to worry about being ostracized or even killed for existing.  So many who are anything outside of hetero-normativity get pushed around by others, giving them the need to push back, and get rights to equal those of cishet people.  Many people show rebellion by doing peaceful protests and going to Pride Parades to show their love for each other and for themselves, trying to show others how they’re just normal people, wishing for the same rights as everyone else.


“In the fell clutch of circumstance I have not winced nor cried aloud.” This quote from the same poem by W.E.Henley gives context and speaks once again to the plight of LGBTQA+ rebels and their fight for equal rights.  For so long, gay, trans, bi, intersex, and so many other people have lived in fear of those around them and have felt like they can’t be themselves in public, for they’d likely be killed. More recently, they’ve been able to be more of themselves in public, but more does not mean they are fully allowed to express themselves in society.  Though they’ve had to deal with statistics such as 1 in every 12 trans people will be murdered and general violence towards LGBTQA+ people has risen dramatically since 2007, they still keep fighting for their future, willing to give themselves to the revolution to help future generations of LGBTQA+. pride

In the short story Harrison Bergeron by Kurt Vonnegut, Jr. the tone is very drab, boring, then moves to excitement, so the reader can feel the energy from Harrison and the ballerina, rebelling against the governments rules of sameness and control.  In the world today, we are not as controlled and regulated by the government as these characters, forcing everyone to wear handicaps so that “nobody was smarter than anybody else. Nobody was better looking than anybody else. Nobody was stronger or quicker than anybody else.”  We are encouraged to be the same, boring people though, as proven by the recent election of Donald Trump and his choice of vice president, Mike Pence.  They have endorsed conversion therapy, which is a way of “turning LGBTQA+ straight,” which is both ridiculous and barbaric, as many working as conversion therapists encourage suicide in patients because it’s “one less gay in the world,” trying to make everyone the same hetero-normative people LGBTQA+ citizens are fighting against.  They are individuals being taught that being different and unique is bad, when it’s something that we should accept and treat normally and give people equal chances to live out their lives like everyone else.

Following past examples of revolts and revolutions, and more immediate, current ones, the main reasons people revolt is because it empowers them, they are oppressed by a majority of others, and it shows that they want to see/make a change to gain equal treatment, leaning away from the control of government, but also from the harsh, unethical standards forced upon minorities/oppressed people.

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The Turn to Corruption

“Ralph wept for the end of innocence, the darkness of man’s heart, and the fall through the air of the true, wise friend called Piggy.”(202)An archetype is a pattern or model from which similar characters or plots are based. LOTF exemplifies a situational archetype, ‘The Fall.’ The boys begin full of innocence, following Ralph peacefully, with Jack being only a mild nuisance, to becoming murderous, barbaric followers  of Jack, who has also fallen into a vulgar, ferocious state.

As the story begins, the boys are innocent, then retrogress into a demented state of being by the time they are saved at the end.  At the start of the book, the boys are all obviously children, even still “dressed in schools uniforms,”(18) so they cannot be all that old, meaning that they were headed somewhere for school when they crashed.  When they go off to scout the island, Ralph’s small group took the time to play around and shove a huge boulder over the cliff-face, something any grown-up would never have taken the time to do unless it had a true purpose apart from fun.  When they got hungry and eventually found a piglet, Jack was hesitant to kill it, unable to cut into another living being, though he knew it would have to die for them to eat and survive.


The boys originally follow Ralph, who is a symbol of hope and humanity, and the other children slowly fall away from him and what he stands for.  The conch shell is a symbol of power and respect, and all the boys vote “‘Let him be chief with the trumpet-thing.'” (22) when it comes time to choose a leader. Everyone but Jack agrees in Ralph’s leadership, eventually prompting him to leave them to survive on his own.  Afterwards, some of the others began to leave as well, listening to what Jack had said about Ralph not being leader material.

After leaving Ralph, more and more of the boys are pulled towards Jack, becoming belligerent barbarians, comfortable with murder.  The first to disappear were Maurice, Bill, and Roger, who had begot their own tribe of hunters being led by Jack, who stated “‘We’ll hunt.  I’m going to be chief.’ They nodded, and the crisis passed easily.”(133) with that last part pertaining to the fact that they all immediately agreed he should be chief, no doubts and no rivals for the position.  The only ones left with Ralph at this point are Piggy, Sam and Eric, and the little kids.  At the end of the story, when they have a more established as a proper tribe of sorts, they come after them, even killing Simon and chasing Ralph down by the end of the book, only stopped by the chance run-in with a few adults that happened to be on the island at this point.


        A LOTF situational archetype is ‘The Fall,’ where the boys began full of innocence and eventually lost it, becoming barbarians, falling away from Ralph, beginning to follow Jack, and turn towards savagery and murder.  “What are we? Humans? Or animals? Or savages?”(91).  That’s not the most feasible question for them to answer, it seems.

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Culture of the Southern US

   A few aspects of southern culture are religion, heritage, prejudice, and tradition.  Many southerners are known to be quite religious, and we have quite a long history with the topic of prejudice and discrimination.


  •      Many southerners are religious, mostly Southerner Baptist Christians, and there are many things that go along with their religion in their everyday lives, like celebrating Christmas by going to church Christmas Eve night to hear about the birth of Jesus – while others may just celebrate for fun, praying before meals, and going to church every Sunday.  A lot of them also have closer ties to their families, both blood and their “church families.”  These bonds usually come from spending so much time with them, and learning about the religion through their parents, as many kids share the same religious beliefs as them.  Religion may also influence their values, as Christianity teaches acceptance of everyone, and being kind to those around you.  Many people have such close ties with their church families because they are raised around, and sometimes by, the people in their church.


  •       Many people from the south don’t realize that they came from the rich, aristocratic, upper class Londoners, Ireland and Scotland.  That’s where our accents come from, and when people hear southern accents, they usually assume that the person speaking isn’t as intelligent as they really are, but if the same person had a British accent, it would likely be presumed that the person speaking is more intelligent than they may be. Other parts of the south, like Louisiana, have a separate accent from the northern parts of the south, and their dialect comes from Acadian and Canadian French, and some still speak Cajun French, which also helped influence the Cajun accent. Southern ancestry might also help explain our mannerisms, like how we tend to treat most people kindly on the outside, but also tend to have prejudice in our hearts and not be so kind in private or in our minds.


  •      There are many traditional things in the South, including farming, education systems, manners, and guise.  Education is tied in very closely to farming, or at least it used to be.  During the period of settlement of America, when most people lived and worked on farms, children would more often work on the farm at home and not go to school during much of the year, especially the summer, and today we don’t have most kids working on farms all the time (though many still do), but we still have a lot of time off, mimicking the past.  Many manners that we have today are also traditional, such as southern hospitality, which has been expressed for may years, making neighbors dinners and trying to help people out however you can,  and is something we are known for in the south.  In the past, the “Southern Belles” dressed as you would likely see women dressed in London, with large dresses and colourful bonnets.  We don’t dress like that now, obviously, but we still have a guise people identify us with, such as cowboy boots and matching hats, bandannas, flannels and blue jeans, etc.


  •      Sadly enough, the South is also usually associated with racism, homophobia, and generally treating others badly if they are different.  This isn’t true for everyone, of course, but we do have a history of slavery and misconduct towards African-Americans, Asians, Mexicans, etc.



This is the confederate flag, which was the flag of the south during the American Civil War.  Many have argued over the issue of flying this flag, some arguing that it only stands for a time when America was divided over slavery; the south was for it, the north was against it, and others say that the flag is simply part of southern heritage.  In this time and age, however, we are known to constantly say how great we are that slavery and racism doesn’t exist anymore, but really, neither of them are completely eradicated.  Both are illegal, but many still have prejudice against people of colour and use racial slurs freely.

Homophobia and transphobia is also an issue, with some ignoring the existence of either, or both, and others rejecting the validity of people who identify as anything other than cisgender and heterosexual.  Though most places have accepted these non-conforming individuals, it’s still a topic many are extraordinarily uncomfortable with, and most southerners, especially older citizens, have trouble treating these topics seriously and with respect.